mms, it's the time of the year for some good ol' musings and reminiscing.

2010 was a big year. a year that shined so brightly in its best moments, and pitch darkness in its worst.

bad things first. goodbyes. there were too many goodbyes this year. goodbye to london, goodbye to my loves in london, goodbye to flat b, 71 marchmont street, goodbye to the dysfunctional odd family we created in that flat, goodbye to the fresh crisp cold air i love, goodbye to the freedom that made me feel alive. but i promise myself it won't be a final goodbye (:

missing out :p that sucked. but i'm happy with all that i gave, so i'm okay with it really. haha. and regarding the others, well, i'm just taking it as it not being the right time :p what's meant to be will be, in its own time..

good things then. there was telders, the ski trip, being back with angie, mondays with ming, snow in seoul, family time.

graduation was rather anticlimatic. but the part where they asked the parents to stand up to applaud for us to congratulate us on making it the entire journey, and then us to applaud them, for all the support they've given us to help us three years, and the pat my father gave me when i walked off the stage, smiling and telling me 'well done, i'm proud of you'. those really had me staring desperately at the ceiling, willing my mascara & eyeliner not to run. having my family there, all healthy and happy made it awesome. to stand on houghton street one last time, laughing with angela & kaylene with no worries in the world. that was our moment, i wish we could have been stuck in that glossy, bright moment forever.

travels (: ah, my last year of crazy traveling for a couple of years. let's see where i got to this year.. singapore. london, serre chevalier, prague, zagreb, belgrade, athens, santorini, mykonos a whole circle around ireland - north and the republic of ireland (galway was lovely), rome, tuscany - chianti, florence, san gimignano, venice, paris, hong kong, seoul, niseko & tokyo (: i'm glad i'm ending the year with tokyo, my favourite (: i went to all the places i said i wanted to go. czech republic, croatia, serbia, the greek islands, niseko, seoul & tokyo. finally i got to south korea (: it was bloody awesome stuff. the villa in tuscany (that was super isolated) and the lodge in annupuri village, niseko was beyond lovely (((: i love these kinds of traveling. the best part was my uncle was there both times. i love traveling with him. he totally rocks my world (((: hahaha. i adore him to bits.

snowboarding. hahaha, i discovered snowboarding this year (: was a total mess at it in march. but still it was so much fun, bloody painful, but fun nonetheless. and yet the second time in niseko, everything just made sense and i suddenly found that i could snowboard :D that was fantastic! i loved the super steep black runs, cutting across the wide runs. whoosh. the feel of the air rushing by your ears, the incredible speed at which you zoom down the mountain is such an adrenaline rush. its a thrill i haven't had since i stopped trampoline. and god do i love it (: it doesn't matter how much i hurt myself, or how 'i could kill myself' (as my mum says), i'm gonna keep doing this every year :D and i'm so getting my own board next year. teehee.

japanese. i'm glad i'm still practising my japanese (: and i'm still learning.

dreams. everything became clear this year. everything i loved suddenly came together in the form of my ultimate dream. a dream i will keep chasing (:

the thing i'll miss most from 2010 is what we shared in flat b, 71 marchmont street. my friends from london will always be there, but those perfect times in our apartment is something we can never go back to, regardless of how much i wish for it. the pizza nights with chor ming, kenneth & joyce, with our meat galore pizza, and the fried chicken, or kfc nights, both with shit lousy streamed champions league football. or the mornings on saturday where i'd roll out of bed, pull my hoodie on and roll out of the house to go buy my risotto balls, chorizo sandwich or cupcakes from my bloomsbury market. sometimes kenneth & joyce would join me, and we'd just sit in the square, with all our goodies, basking in the warm sunshine (: and the nights that chor ming and i cooked together, or the hot soup on a winter's night, the lovely talks, the crazy stupid things we'd do (: these memories never fail to bring this warm fond feeling inside of me (:

and for 2011. it'll be the 10th year decade of the 202 friendships (: and it's the start of worklife for me. i've been whinging about it, but in all actual fact, as the days get closer to the start of 2011, i feel ready for this new start. to officially put down the next step in seek of my dream (:

so for 2011, all i hope is that i pass the part b, get to travel somehow or another, spend time with my friends, have everyone stay healthy & alive, enjoy my work, and enjoy life (: ooh and snowboard more! teehee.